Just be Thankful.

Do you ever feel like you think to much about yourself and your own situation? I do. I know I think of myself to much sometimes and sometimes not enough.
The start to this year has been a rough one to say the least(Thankfully not as rough as it could be.). I don’t really remember January, most of it was spent with my family and us fighting off colds and flu bugs. The end of January, start of February, Olivia had her UTI. One week in hospital (bummer). Orlund worked every SINGLE day after that except for two days for the remainder of February. March has swung around. The first week we started to get back into the swing of things (I will post soon about my struggles in that time). Then this Monday Orlund headed to Vancouver for training. He returned at 9:30pm Thursday night. Then Today (Friday) we spent the day as a family as we were both off work, then at 3:00pm his dad picked him up for the Men’s Conference. The conference is supposed to be 24hours, however tack on the 3 hours before it starts that he was with his dad and the at least 1 hour drive back home after the 24hours and we are looking at at least 28hours. Joy has been running a fever over the past week, and Olivia finally popped out another tooth (still working on two more).
Lets just say, it’s been a long week.
Tonight I lost it. ~ Yeah I get the award for worst mom moment here~ I finally got Olivia to sleep and came out to the living room. Then I heard Joy opening the door. She opens it noisily as she can hardly reach the door knob. Olivia woke up. sigh. I went in and calmed Olivia down. Joy then informed me she needed to go pee ~ hence why she was  trying to escape their room. I rushed her out to the bathroom. rushed? sure. Hard to rush a half sleepy kid. Olivia woke up screaming and Joy wasn’t moving fast enough. We got to the bathroom where I lost it. I screamed “Dam it!”  then pulled my hair and just screamed….. yeah…smooth mom…. I try to never lose it like this in front of anyone, but I was feeling exhausted, it wasn’t even really due to what was going on so much as I was feeling sorry for myself that Orlund wasn’t around to help… Poor Joy! She started balling her eyes out!!! I apologized and snuggled her letting her know it wasn’t her fault and I wasn’t mad at her. She then ‘told’ me why she was crying by saying “Dam it”….GREAT! first I screw up royally  then she learns a bad word from me! The good news she was still able to go potty and soon enough they were both asleep again.
The point of sharing that story is ~ I then went on facebook and complained about wanting our lives to return to normal…. A friend replied saying; “What’s normal? I forget what that feels like.”. Her husband has MS. It has turned their lives upside down and to say the least~ I have nothing to complain about in comparison! It got me thinking. My Cousin’s daughter has had Cancer (Thank you JESUS!) so their lives are anything but normal. They just finished the radiation and are now home waiting until it’s time to take the next MRI. And Japan! Thousands of people wont be able to return to ‘normal’ anytime soon. Who am I to Complain?
THANK YOU JESUS! That although I’m tired and want my husband to be home with us, that we have it a lot easier than so many people around us. THANK YOU GOD for keeping us safe and sound and healthy. There is so much to be Thankful for! I have two beautiful healthy daughters, a wonderful hard working husband (who treats me like a Queen), a wonderful family (and family in law), a roof over our head, a car to drive, work etc etc etc. The list is endless.
How are you doing? Do you see what God has given you to be thankful for?

One thought on “Just be Thankful.

  1. Oh sweetie. You have so, so much to be thankful for and it is also entirely reasonable to feel frustrated when frustrating things happen, even if they aren’t as ‘bad’ as other people’s. It’s good that you don’t dwell in it. It’s good to take a positive perspective, but don’t beat yourself up either. You’re human after all.

    All parents screw up and sometimes yell at their children. The good parents feel bad, apologize and give their children the opportunity to learn how to forgive and move on in love.

    And don’t worry. You’re going to tach her so much more awful things than saying bad words. They are just little carbon copies of us. Everytime one of my kids rolls her eyes or makes a flippant remark I cringe because I know exactly where she learned it. But we teach them the good stuff too.

    You’re doing an excellent job! Mothering is the most difficult and rewarding job you will ever do.

    Today I’m thankful for Matthew being such a good daddy by taking the kids to the pool and such a good husband for giving me a few hours to get a homework assignment done. (I was done before I started reading blogs, I promise.)

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