Sleep?

I keep going back and forth on my decision on what to do/not do about Jacob’s sleep patterns. A friend of mine who has a baby just 9days older just went through this. she decided to go the route of CIO (Cry it out), this can seem harsh to some, however not to long ago we did it with Jacob as well. It worked. Then it didn’t, teeth arrived and we were back to sleepless nights.
Last night I decided to try the CIO method again, his crying sounded like the world was crashing in on him. It broke my heart. after 5minutes I went in, nursed him and had a little cry. Nope. I’ve made up my mind this time. He’s my last baby… A baby that is almost 1 year already! Olivia started sleeping through the night around 2years old. so that gives me approximately one more year of this. This is my take on it ~
I miss sleep. I think if I slept better I wouldn’t be in this fuzzy state of mind. I would be able to refocus and possibly actually focus.. However in a years time I will no longer get to go in and snuggle my baby in the stillness, silence of the night. He wont reach up and play with my hair, or caress my cheeks with his soft hand. He wont be a little baby anymore, he’s growing. every second he’s growing. I know I’ll miss these times once they are gone. I want to enjoy every sleepless minute of it. He’s my baby, my last baby. I want to soak in every second of his babyness. So there will be no sleep training here, none. I’ve finally made up my mind. I have the rest of my life for good night sleeps, for this next yearish I can make due with what Jacob gives me. The Lord will provide the rest I need.
Oh and you might wonder how my house is going? another 15minutes or so and I’m done purging our master bedroom!! Then it’s onto the office and toy room. feeling good!

Who wouldn't want to soak all this in?

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