So you can track how many people view your blog… and see where abouts (City) they live…. I regularly have 3 visitors. I’m pretty sure I can guess all 3 of your names 😉 Yup YOU!
Thanks for being my faithful 3…. and yes I will post the princess day pics, they are now on my computer, but it’s 11pm and we gotta get up early for Church. Good night you 3!
Hi, I’m here. I’m alive. And I’m thriving!!!
Sorry I’ve fallen short in blogging, been busy busy. Lots of work (daycare and house). My girlfriend Ashley has been stopping in almost every Monday and Wednesday, her eldest daughter is in preschool so instead of her heading home and us chatting on the phone she’s been coming over. I don’t know if she even realizes how much her visits have helped lift my spirits 🙂 Some days we just sit and sip coffee and talk about house hunting (for her), or house organizing (for both), and all about our wonderful kids. Her eldest is 8days older than Joy, and her youngest is 9days older than Jacob (although celebrated 8days apart 3 of every 4 years). So it’s kind of fun to see them playing. And for naps it works out perfect as Jacob gets up from his morning nap when she arrives, after lunch Reegan (her youngest) goes for her nap, and when she wakes up and they leave Jacob goes for his second (if he has a second). This past Thursday she kept her eldest home from school and came over for the entire day. We got to purging/cleaning the girls room and the toy room! (we recently switched the girls to bunk beds and well…. lets just say the toy room got dumped on! lol). She’s the help I’ve been needing for purging! I’ve actually really got into the swing of it again and am enjoying the purge!! This coming week she’s going to come over and help me finish it off. The only stuff that will be left to purge is our storage boxes (but that’s for whenever).
I also have a fabulous group of mom’s on facebook. Mom’s from all across Canada who were due in March 2012. I love them and all their advise, however I found to much of my time was wasted on line. So now I only go on in the evenings once the kids are in bed and the house is picked up. I feel so much freer! I have my morning devotions with the Lord as well and I feel as though He’s telling me to step back and he’s given me a disinterest in facebook.
So all in all I’m feeling good! Loving my life! One day last week I even took the entire day and completely devoted it to playing with the kids ~ no chores! I made sure the house was good the night before and once they were in bed I tidied up from the day. It was a ‘princess’ party (with one prince), I have pics and I’ll post them perhaps tomorrow night. It was a fabulous day, and although a chore free day isn’t always possible I’m enjoying taking the time to just ‘hang out’ with the kids more and devote (more) undivided attention to them.
I keep going back and forth on my decision on what to do/not do about Jacob’s sleep patterns. A friend of mine who has a baby just 9days older just went through this. she decided to go the route of CIO (Cry it out), this can seem harsh to some, however not to long ago we did it with Jacob as well. It worked. Then it didn’t, teeth arrived and we were back to sleepless nights.
Last night I decided to try the CIO method again, his crying sounded like the world was crashing in on him. It broke my heart. after 5minutes I went in, nursed him and had a little cry. Nope. I’ve made up my mind this time. He’s my last baby… A baby that is almost 1 year already! Olivia started sleeping through the night around 2years old. so that gives me approximately one more year of this. This is my take on it ~
I miss sleep. I think if I slept better I wouldn’t be in this fuzzy state of mind. I would be able to refocus and possibly actually focus.. However in a years time I will no longer get to go in and snuggle my baby in the stillness, silence of the night. He wont reach up and play with my hair, or caress my cheeks with his soft hand. He wont be a little baby anymore, he’s growing. every second he’s growing. I know I’ll miss these times once they are gone. I want to enjoy every sleepless minute of it. He’s my baby, my last baby. I want to soak in every second of his babyness. So there will be no sleep training here, none. I’ve finally made up my mind. I have the rest of my life for good night sleeps, for this next yearish I can make due with what Jacob gives me. The Lord will provide the rest I need.
Oh and you might wonder how my house is going? another 15minutes or so and I’m done purging our master bedroom!! Then it’s onto the office and toy room. feeling good!
Some days the pain swells inside you and overflows into tears. The pain for me is no where near the pain they must feel, unfathomable pain, for the loss of their dear sweet baby girl.
It’s been one year since Miss Charlotte joined Jesus in Heaven.
I think of her daily, usually while I nurse Jacob to sleep. In the stillness while I pray for my Children’s health she comes to mind. I pray she’s having fun with Jesus. I know she’s surrounded by love. I pray for her big sister and parents who are left here missing her, longing for one more snuggle. One more kiss. One more giggle. One more. Just one more. I always snuggle Jacob in closer at this point in my prayers. Sometimes he even stops nursing to gently touch my cheek. I don’t know what else there is to say, she is loved, she is with Jesus. we miss her and will never forget her.
After people hear about the passing of a child they tell you to hug your kids tight tonight. I do every night. But sometimes you just want to remind people, don’t forget to snuggle with them, love them and be in their presence.
Today I say extra prayers for all the family. I’m taking even more time to pause and embrace my kids, kiss their cheeks, tickle their sides and visit with them. I hope you do too. Please Jesus give her an extra squeeze from me today.
If you’ve followed my blog for any amount of time, or know me personally, you know I’m a list person. I LOVE lists. I feel like they keep me on track. I do sometimes however use them as an excuse. Orlund will mention to me something that needs to be done (clean out fridge) I’ll answer “it’s on my list”. because, well frankly just about everything is on one list or another. I’m doing much better at just doing what he asks of me right then and there, or at least bumping it to the top of the list.
Last week I wrote out my lists a bit differently, this week I follow the same ‘game plan’ just don’t write it out. I wrote out IN order what I was to do that day. I didn’t write out caring for the kids as I did that in there as well however I wanted to try to establish a routine that works.
This is how my mornings look ~ wake, crawl out of bed use the washroom, brush my teeth/hair put on D.O., get dressed, put pj’s away (under pillow), make bed. Empty dishwasher while making breakfast, eat, clear table. Put load of laundry to wash, Bible devotions with cup of coffee. Change laundry over. do exercises (on days I don’t have daycare kids). That’s the morning routine, I didn’t include all the kid stuff in there but believe me it’s ‘there’. That takes us to roughly snack time depending on when we got started. So while the kids snack I read 2 stories to them, from Joy’s preschool curriculum. I clean as I go so that the main living area maintains a certain level of clean. I’m back to following Flylady as well. Every chance I get I head into our bedroom and spend 15minutes purging, cleaning, organizing. If we decide to play downstairs I take 15minutes to do the same in our office area. I think I’m doing good!
This morning things are going to be a bit different as Jacob just had an explosion so the kids will get their baths. He’s just finishing breakfast.
Hope your January is a productive one ~ or relaxing whatever it is YOU wish it to be.
I leave you with one last thought, a friend and I were chatting about this ~ Everything you do, or don’t do it’s not a matter of having enough time, it’s a matter of what’s priority to you. If it’s a priority you’ll get it done.
So what if we are 7days in already? Happy New Year! And that’s what it is 🙂
I don’t do resolutions because well…I find resolutions are for breaking! LOL. I did however ponder what all has happened in this last year and what I look forward to in this year.
Last year I had my First baby boy, and while he’s my first he’s also my last baby. *pout*. My girls grew up. *double pout* I went through times of depression and hatefullness towards myself. Times of triumph and sorrow. I almost feel as though I witnessed this year as a memory, I wasn’t really there and yet I was. And please don’t worry I did have wonderful times, mostly brought on by my fabulous family! I’ve tried my hardest to enjoy and breath in all that I can of my babies, but in regards to me, myself and I, I feel as though I’m missing something. I was lost in a world of clutter, loneliness and feeling blah. (sorry to sound so down, but this is the honest truth of my year).
HOWEVER “In princess stories there’s always a however” ~ sorry random quote from a Veggie Tales movie, and hey I’m God’s Princess! I’m turning things around. A dear friend of mine asked me recently if I have a hard time tossing things (which I always have), I said yes. However I was wrong. I should have said “I have had a hard time in the past, but I’m doing good with it now”. I’m purging. I’m purging my house of unnecessary clutter, I’m purging my body of unnecessary fat (exercise and eating good), I’m purging my thoughts of doubt/hate/martyr like thinking, I’m turning my eyes to Jesus and spending daily time in His word and am LOVING IT! Last week was spent cleaning from New years and getting ready for Hazel’s Birthday party. This week is all about maintaining the peace of my house and getting back to purging the office! I’m LOVING IT and feeling great about this new year! All the things I’ve wanted to accomplish in the past few years I’m going to do ~ and I’m going to enjoy it! I’m taking time to take care of myself and not just my family. I’m being who God wants me to be this Year.
Hope you all had wonderful holidays and are looking forward with excitement at this new year! God Bless!
I’ve had a number of posts brewing in my mind.. I just don’t have time right now to post them.
That being said I thought (for fun) I’d share our ‘other’ baby names. We have decided we are done growing our family (unless the Lord decides to surprise us), so I figure it’s safe to share our names.
Originally we figured we would have 4-5kids (I was aiming for 5). We figured this was the order they would arrive and their names would be as follows~
That’s right. Then low and behold we had a girl first! We went back and forth on naming her Joy or Natalia. The deciding factor? Orlund kept saying Natalie not Natalia ~ BIG difference to me! So Joy it was.
We got pregnant again, So we reviewed the names.
boy~ Isaac Hugh
girl ~ Olivia Margaret
those are our middle names so wanted to pass them along. We had Olivia.
Pregnancy #3. Time to review again.
boy~ Jacob Hugh
girl ~ Lucy Jean
Jacob won. LOL. Lucy was the first girl name that Orlund had come up with. I still LOVE that name and sometimes wish we could have another girl so I could have my little Lucy. Maybe we’ll have to use it for a pets name?
There you have it! All the changes and thoughts along the way. We had originally wanted to name our kids with easy to say/spell names that were NOT the most popular. Orlund is always having to pronounce his name and spell it for people, so he didn’t want that for the kids. And I always had 3+ other girls with the same name in my class growing up, didn’t want that either…. turns out Olivia and Jacob are BOTH top of the list, guess Joy is the only one that completely stuck to the ‘rules’.
What were other names you had picked out for your kids?
Sure my life can feel hectic and crazy. But I love it. I love my kids and I love my husband. I love that I am able to stay home and take care of my family.
A friend wrote me an email late last week, and although I don’t believe she was trying to insult me, she did. She was inviting me out to an event that was to be child free. She invited me by saying that she knows I love to get out without the kids…… doesn’t sound like an insult but it did hurt a bit.
I’m a mom. I’m a mom that loves getting OUT, and I love getting out WITH my children. You may think ‘but you are always so excited to go to mom’s night out without the kids’. It’s not so much that I’m without my children that gets me excited for the evening out. It’s the fact that I get to visit with a bunch of fabulous ladies. I get to attempt to have adult conversation, and lets face it, having to only feed yourself is kinda special on occasion. If I could take my kids I most likely would take one of them along. Everyone needs alone time. Mom’s night out is the closest I get to alone time.
Do you see how she accidentally insulted me? I’m not a lady who hates my life and is just itching to get away from my children. The opposite is true, I want to BE WITH my Children. I think the thing I dislike most about they way she invited me is that she has the impression I want to be without my kids. Mom’s night out is really the only time I like to be without the kids where I’m not alone. I enjoy grocery shopping (once a year) without the kids, I space out and take 2 hours to buy 3 things. It’s alone time, and I think every mom can appreciate the rare moment when you get to have ‘alone time’.
Sorry to you my handful of ‘followers’… I’ve been bad at blogging.
I’m busy, just kinda 😉
I have a new daycare girl that I watch 2days , 4hours each, a week. She’s 2 ~ busy.
I have a crawling ,almost, 7month old ~ busy.
My mom is in town (Yippee) ~ busy.
I have 2 toddler girls who are fighting for my attention ~ busy.
I still watch Sol ~ busy.
I’m still a house wife (Phew!) ~ busy.
I still suck at house chores……….working on it ~ as always.
I’m doing crafts, to many crafts ~ busy.
I really need to update this blog. However for now this is all you get, sorry. But Jacob was up last night A LOT, I think I may have gotten 4hours ~interrupted~ sleep last night. We can’t see any teeth, his 6month shots were a week ago so they shouldn’t be bothering him still. I just don’t know. But it’s 10:40pm so I’d best be hitting the pillow in case he decides to repeat last night.
My mom is heading back to Thailand tomorrow (well to Vancouver) so I’m heading out to her house to help her pack (I always pack her bag ~ it’s tradition). It’ll be a sad day for me, I’ll miss my morning phone calls to her and my random phone calls throughout the day. She calls me with Revelations the Lord has shown her, and I call her with random questions ~ sewing, cleaning, child rearing. She has so much knowledge I wish I could tap into it more often. Sure we have Skype and email but it’s not the same. I have to remember my questions and hope she has time to answer them. But she is doing the Lord’s work and I think it’s amazing. I’m so proud of her and my dad.
Do you ever just feel like screaming? not at anyone or anything, just screaming at the top of your lungs letting go of your frustrations? That’s what I feel like doing today, actually I kind of did do it already (oops). I also wish I could curl up with a giant bowl of chocolate ice cream, watch some action romance movie, cry my eyes out, not gain weight and then have a good solid nights sleep……………………………………………..perhaps in another 2 years…. as for now I get to try and manage a moody 4year old, a test my limits teething 2year old and a ‘I feel like fussing’ 5month old. Have a husband working 2 jobs (they need him) so hardly see him, a house I can’t seem to get under control, a fish tank needing a good cleaning, shall I go on? nah, I think that’s enough complaining… time to get out of this funk!