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Tonight

Wow! I haven’t blogged since June! Life sure has changed since then!

I was just going to say a quick blurp but instead I think I’ll actually blog (I have like 20minutes before I want to attempt going to ‘bed’…more on that later).

My energy truely has returned! Praise the Lord! So much so I decided to do a fall cleaning of our house. I haven’t done a ‘true’ fall (or spring) cleaning in…well…. since the first cleaning when we moved in! Sure I’ve cleaned everything overtime but never a ‘lets do this’ cleaning where you do it all quickly and get it done…. well that was the plan anyway! I started in October, I had two weeks left before November and wanted to get the fall cleaning done before the new month….. I’m now trying to finish it this week (so it’s done before December). I only have half the Kitchen and the master bedroom left…can I do it? I hope so, although delay after delay keep coming up. And it’s not that I don’t have the energy to do the cleaning, I just don’t have the time!

I am homeschooling Joy (Grade 1) and Olivia (Pre-K). Olivia begs to do school work, Joy begs NOT to do it! They are both doing great though and we are looking to change up a few things to make it more fun etc, so over the month of December we will be taking a bit of a break to re-vamp things. To do all their school work, with all their fightings and distractions it takes us between 2-3 hours (we do 45min work, 15min break, repeat). So we are done by lunch time, sometimes (as we are slow in the morning) we eat lunch at 1pm.

Then there is the basic upkeep of a house hold. As well as squeezing in the fall cleaning, crafts and outdoor time (what is that?! I’m so bad at not getting them out!).

By the time I’m done the house chores it’s time to make dinner and Orlund is home. After dinner is cleaned up we have family time, bath time, or just play time. Often times I try and fit in MY crafts in this time when the kids are more than happy to play on their own. (you know crocheting, sewing, cross stitching, etc etc).

Before we know it it’s time for the kids bedtime routine and they are down at 7pm. Then it’s Orlund and my time to do OUR school work! Yup, Orlund and I are taking online courses. (different courses). I’ve decided I’d like to be a ‘Medical Laboratory Assistant’ (as my friend calls them ‘lab ladies’, we collect samples etc). There are 4 courses in the program, plus a 4 day work shop (hands on training) then a 6wk full time (unpaid) practicum. I’ve been given a promise of a practicum placement at the hospital. I want to work at the hospital ~ I know I’m crazy πŸ˜‰

After we do an hour to two of our school work we watch a tv show to unwind before bed.

Yup. busy.

Saturday night we went out for dinner with my dad. It was so good to see him, although we only live 45min away (and he’s in town every week day) we hardly see him. He does swing by and see the girls in their gymnastics class as it’s at the University (where he teaches), but that’s just a quick “hello” on his lunch break. So we had a dinner out with him, and planned to have him over Tuesday for his Birthday dinner (that’s tonight, his Bday is tomorrow). But Saturday night………….”Mommy! I threw up!” Joy calls…. she was sick until we went to bed at 11pm, and then it was still a restless night. She kept getting better. Last night, 2am “Mommy!! Olivia’s throwing up!” Joy calls, I answer “give her your bucket!!!”. Too late.. change of bedding….She was up every 45min or so…. I couldn’t sleep in between either. Long night.

Tonight…. Tonight I sleep on Jacob’s floor. Orlund came home from work sick, and he did get sick too. Olivia and Daddy are sharing our bed. I don’t want their germs. I changed Olivia’s bedding, but I still don’t want to sleep in their room, I haven’t fully disinfected it yet. Joy’s sleeping in there, she’s already had it and is back to normal. I’m not sleeping in the living room, too bright/cold. I’m not sleeping with the sicko’s, nope. Jacob and I are the only ones showing NO signs… Please pray we don’t get it. We are sticking together…. maybe him eating his boogers has protected him? I’m not going to start!

Pray for a good night, Pray for health. Much love!

ps~ sorry for any bad spelling, or grammar. I’m always bad, but I’m on Orlund’s comp and he has spell check off! (my computer is in the shop, for the 3rd time!).

Spring time!

Sorry I’m so incredibly behind on blogging…. to you very few people who read this…. Is that crickets I hear?

Chemo finished the last week of February. So incredibly thankful for that to be OVER! Since then I had some CT scan’s and blood tests etc. They were worried as some of my blood tests came back showing high liver counts (if colon cancer is to return it often shows up in the Liver or Lungs ~ and yes it’s still called Colon cancer!). However after the CT and Xray they deemed it a side effect of Chemo.

My mom returned from Thailand to help me out during my last treatment, sure is nice having her home!

My re-attachment surgery was April 1st. That’s right! My intestines are now reattached and I no longer have a baggy!! Woop woop!! I also asked them to ‘fix’ up my scar as it was very large, so they made it smaller and in doing so they also fixed my stomach muscles as they had gotten stretched out when I bloatedΒ  (first sick). So now they are back to being straight and I’ll be able to tone them unlike before. So it was almost like a little tummy tuck! Gotta love that!

Since Chemo and Surgery life has been slowly returning to normal. My fingers and feet are still numb, but I’m getting more and more feeling everyday. I tried doing an exercise program, I did day one and now one week later I’m still sore πŸ™ guess I should listen to the Dr and start off with walking! lol.

My mom and I went to Kelowna to the homeschooling conference, wow! learned so much and it got me so excited for homeschooling! It made it not feel like a chore, but as something to look forward to and enjoy πŸ™‚ always nice to have the flame of passion reignited! Since then Mom and I have cleaned up the disastrous toy room, and converted it into the ‘school’ room. moved all the books down there and set it up so that I’m able to teach more easily. and since it still houses many toys the littles play around us happily.

Next on the list? sew seat covers for my dining room chairs ~ doing that tomorrow. I almost had my entire office cleaned out, however with the arrival of Joy’s 6th Birthday party it got overloaded with the ‘still sorting’ stuff. Mom heads home on Sunday so I’ll be going the office alone. But if she can help me sew then I’ll be good to go πŸ™‚

Since my last post we’ve had all 3 kids birthday parties. Jacob’s was monster truck theme, Olivia’s was Periwinkle theme and Joy’s was supposed to be Dora, but got converted to Candy Land/fun colours. We had planned Joy’s to be outside, however the weather decided to not co-operate. Oh well!

I cannot believe it is May already…. It’s almost been 1 full year since I first realized I was sick. I find myself thinking about that time a lot right now, how we thought there was just something simple wrong and it’d be an easy fix. When really we had no idea what kind of curve ball we were getting thrown. So thankful that God knew and was prepared, He’s never caught off guard!

I’m going to try and blog once a week…..wish me luck! LOL. And I’ll be sure to post more pictures as we go πŸ™‚

Princess Party!

Yesterday My baby boy turned 1 year old!!! CRAZY CATS! His party was postponed until this coming Sunday (unfortunately now I realize that’s ‘time change’ day..oh well). Anyhow, this all got me thinking about stuff I had on my list that got pushed off my list with pre-birthday preparations. I haven’t blogged about our Princess day!! oops! so here it is πŸ™‚

January 24th, 2013 I decided to not do any house chores and spend the day making it special for my 3 kids. It was a fabulous day that started off with a ‘princess’ breakfast (Jacob doesn’t mind doing princessy stuff, any good prince doesn’t mind ;). ). Toast cut into little flowers, flavoured with butter, brown sugar and cinnamon (yummy!). Grapes on the side and as the flower center. It was scrumptious!

breakfast of princesses (complete with Juice)

We of course had to then dress like princesses! (don’t forget it’s January..brr). Here are some pics of them all ‘purdied’ up! (I chose a skirt and shirt, much easier for nursing in!). I did their hair and they did mine, Joy took the pics of my hair ~ aren’t we so cute?

Princesses
Prince Charming.

Then of course it was time for tea! can’t have a princess party without tea….

I asked the girls what they wanted to do, and they wanted to go feed the ducks. so we loaded up the stroller and headed out…. Poor Jacob… Mommy didn’t want to waste the money on a snow suit he’d wear for one year, so he got a hand-me-down from the girls… sorry honey… It was fun! We got a few strange looks but I could careless it was a day all about my kids πŸ™‚

feeding the ducks.
yup, he's adorable!

I can’t recall what we had for lunch (probably KD their favorite!) but it was fun, we had another special snack ~ Peanut butter, marshmallows and apple. And the girls played princess/tea party stuff for the rest of the day.
It was one of the most wonderful day’s we’ve had in a long time. I get so bogged down with chores, teaching preschool and with life in general that sometimes I forget that we just need to have fun! I sometimes feel like I’m failing as a mom because I have such a hard time staying on top of everything that I feel like I’m not having enough fun with the kids. I’m going to make a personal goal this month (to get into a habit) that we will have MORE fun! Chores can wait for a little longer in the day, or until they are in bed. I only have them for such a short time before they are in school etc. I want to enjoy it. I want to look back on this time of my life and remember having tea parties, doing crafts, having tickle wars, being silly, teaching them through fun, not look back and see wasted time on chores. Chores need to be done, yes unfortunately they do, however they aren’t going anywhere….. my kids will be eventually.

Analytics

So you can track how many people view your blog… and see where abouts (City) they live…. I regularly have 3 visitors. I’m pretty sure I can guess all 3 of your names πŸ˜‰ Yup YOU!
Thanks for being my faithful 3…. and yes I will post the princess day pics, they are now on my computer, but it’s 11pm and we gotta get up early for Church. Good night you 3!

Hi!

Hi, I’m here. I’m alive. And I’m thriving!!!
Sorry I’ve fallen short in blogging, been busy busy. Lots of work (daycare and house). My girlfriend Ashley has been stopping in almost every Monday and Wednesday, her eldest daughter is in preschool so instead of her heading home and us chatting on the phone she’s been coming over. I don’t know if she even realizes how much her visits have helped lift my spirits πŸ™‚ Some days we just sit and sip coffee and talk about house hunting (for her), or house organizing (for both), and all about our wonderful kids. Her eldest is 8days older than Joy, and her youngest is 9days older than Jacob (although celebrated 8days apart 3 of every 4 years). So it’s kind of fun to see them playing. And for naps it works out perfect as Jacob gets up from his morning nap when she arrives, after lunch Reegan (her youngest) goes for her nap, and when she wakes up and they leave Jacob goes for his second (if he has a second). This past Thursday she kept her eldest home from school and came over for the entire day. We got to purging/cleaning the girls room and the toy room! (we recently switched the girls to bunk beds and well…. lets just say the toy room got dumped on! lol). She’s the help I’ve been needing for purging! I’ve actually really got into the swing of it again and am enjoying the purge!! This coming week she’s going to come over and help me finish it off. The only stuff that will be left to purge is our storage boxes (but that’s for whenever).
I also have a fabulous group of mom’s on facebook. Mom’s from all across Canada who were due in March 2012. I love them and all their advise, however I found to much of my time was wasted on line. So now I only go on in the evenings once the kids are in bed and the house is picked up. I feel so much freer! I have my morning devotions with the Lord as well and I feel as though He’s telling me to step back and he’s given me a disinterest in facebook.
So all in all I’m feeling good! Loving my life! One day last week I even took the entire day and completely devoted it to playing with the kids ~ no chores! I made sure the house was good the night before and once they were in bed I tidied up from the day. It was a ‘princess’ party (with one prince), I have pics and I’ll post them perhaps tomorrow night. It was a fabulous day, and although a chore free day isn’t always possible I’m enjoying taking the time to just ‘hang out’ with the kids more and devoteΒ  (more) undivided attention to them.

Our prince charming πŸ™‚

Sleep?

I keep going back and forth on my decision on what to do/not do about Jacob’s sleep patterns. A friend of mine who has a baby just 9days older just went through this. she decided to go the route of CIO (Cry it out), this can seem harsh to some, however not to long ago we did it with Jacob as well. It worked. Then it didn’t, teeth arrived and we were back to sleepless nights.
Last night I decided to try the CIO method again, his crying sounded like the world was crashing in on him. It broke my heart. after 5minutes I went in, nursed him and had a little cry. Nope. I’ve made up my mind this time. He’s my last baby… A baby that is almost 1 year already! Olivia started sleeping through the night around 2years old. so that gives me approximately one more year of this. This is my take on it ~
I miss sleep. I think if I slept better I wouldn’t be in this fuzzy state of mind. I would be able to refocus and possibly actually focus.. However in a years time I will no longer get to go in and snuggle my baby in the stillness, silence of the night. He wont reach up and play with my hair, or caress my cheeks with his soft hand. He wont be a little baby anymore, he’s growing. every second he’s growing. I know I’ll miss these times once they are gone. I want to enjoy every sleepless minute of it. He’s my baby, my last baby. I want to soak in every second of his babyness. So there will be no sleep training here, none. I’ve finally made up my mind. I have the rest of my life for good night sleeps, for this next yearish I can make due with what Jacob gives me. The Lord will provide the rest I need.
Oh and you might wonder how my house is going? another 15minutes or so and I’m done purging our master bedroom!! Then it’s onto the office and toy room. feeling good!

Who wouldn't want to soak all this in?

Happy New year!

So what if we are 7days in already? Happy New Year! And that’s what it is πŸ™‚

I don’t do resolutions because well…I find resolutions are for breaking! LOL. I did however ponder what all has happened in this last year and what I look forward to in this year.
Last year I had my First baby boy, and while he’s my first he’s also my last baby. *pout*. My girls grew up. *double pout* I went through times of depression and hatefullness towards myself. Times of triumph and sorrow. I almost feel as though I witnessed this year as a memory, I wasn’t really there and yet I was. And please don’t worry I did have wonderful times, mostly brought on by my fabulous family! I’ve tried my hardest to enjoy and breath in all that I can of my babies, but in regards to me, myself and I, I feel as though I’m missing something. I was lost in a world of clutter, loneliness and feeling blah. (sorry to sound so down, but this is the honest truth of my year).

HOWEVER “In princess stories there’s always a however” ~ sorry random quote from a Veggie Tales movie, and hey I’m God’s Princess! I’m turning things around. A dear friend of mine asked me recently if I have a hard time tossing things (which I always have), I said yes. However I was wrong. I should have said “I have had a hard time in the past, but I’m doing good with it now”. I’m purging. I’m purging my house of unnecessary clutter, I’m purging my body of unnecessary fat (exercise and eating good), I’m purging my thoughts of doubt/hate/martyr like thinking, I’m turning my eyes to Jesus and spending daily time in His word and am LOVING IT!Β  Last week was spent cleaning from New years and getting ready for Hazel’s Birthday party. This week is all about maintaining the peace of my house and getting back to purging the office! I’m LOVING IT and feeling great about this new year! All the things I’ve wanted to accomplish in the past few years I’m going to do ~ and I’m going to enjoy it! I’m taking time to take care of myself and not just my family. I’m being who God wants me to be this Year.

Hope you all had wonderful holidays and are looking forward with excitement at this new year! God Bless!

I’m alive…sort of.

Sorry to you my handful ofΒ  ‘followers’… I’ve been bad at blogging.

I’m busy, just kinda πŸ˜‰

I have a new daycare girl that I watch 2days , 4hours each, a week. She’s 2 ~ busy.
I have a crawling ,almost, 7month old ~ busy.
My mom is in town (Yippee) ~ busy.
I have 2 toddler girls who are fighting for my attention ~ busy.
I still watch Sol ~ busy.
I’m still a house wife (Phew!) ~ busy.
I still suck at house chores……….working on it ~ as always.
I’m doing crafts, to many crafts ~ busy.

I really need to update this blog. However for now this is all you get, sorry. But Jacob was up last night A LOT, I think I may have gotten 4hours ~interrupted~ sleep last night. We can’t see any teeth, his 6month shots were a week ago so they shouldn’t be bothering him still. I just don’t know. But it’s 10:40pm so I’d best be hitting the pillow in case he decides to repeat last night.

My mom is heading back to Thailand tomorrow (well to Vancouver) so I’m heading out to her house to help her pack (I always pack her bag ~ it’s tradition). It’ll be a sad day for me, I’ll miss my morning phone calls to her and my random phone calls throughout the day. She calls me with Revelations the Lord has shown her, and I call her with random questions ~ sewing, cleaning, child rearing. She has so much knowledge I wish I could tap into it more often. Sure we have Skype and email but it’s not the same. I have to remember my questions and hope she has time to answer them. But she is doing the Lord’s work and I think it’s amazing. I’m so proud of her and my dad.

Okay, going to bed.

nighty night.

scream?

Do you ever just feel like screaming? not atΒ  anyone or anything, just screaming at the top of your lungs letting go of your frustrations? That’s what I feel like doing today, actually I kind of did do it already (oops). I also wish I could curl up with a giant bowl of chocolate ice cream, watch some action romance movie, cry my eyes out, not gain weight and then have a good solid nights sleep……………………………………………..perhaps in another 2 years…. as for now I get to try and manage a moody 4year old, a test my limits teething 2year old and a ‘I feel like fussing’ 5month old. Have a husband working 2 jobs (they need him) so hardly see him, a house I can’t seem to get under control, a fish tank needing a good cleaning, shall I go on? nah, I think that’s enough complaining… time to get out of this funk!

motivation?

I’ve been on a roller coaster of emotions lately. We found a house we would like to buy. If we could get it for $40K less than asking price and get a good amount for our place we would do it. We (Orlund and I in the thought process) have gone back and forth 100 times. That does a lot to a person emotionally. I’m drained. We have decided to NOT go for it. We are going to wait a year. One more year squished in here, but where we have some financial freedom. We will save, pay down the house while doing some minor upgrades. Then re-evaluate next year.

Jacob has hit the 3 month mark. The age when infants become babies (in my eyes at least). They smile regularly, giggle and colic subsides. Jacob changed over night it seemed. Then he did again. He used to have bad gas and was colic.He pooped once every 4 days. He slept from 9pm to 5am without waking. Then usually slept after feeding until 7/8am. He also took at least one nap without me holding him. Now he knows how to pass gas, and the colic is mostly gone. He poops once a day (he has a hard time leading up to it. and overflows his diaper everyday). He goes to bed at 11pm, wakes to feed at 3am, 5am, 7am, and gets up sometime before 9am. He wont nap during the day unless on me, and even then he fights sleep like you wouldn’t believe.

Happy dimple boy

With all the changes in regard to Jacob and the emotional exhaustion my house has fallen to pieces. As I was nursing Jacob (he’s now napping on my chest) I decided to read through a few of my old posts… I read the ones about nesting…wish I had that gusto now! I will admit it did inspire me to get this house back in shape. It helps me feel so much better when the house is clean and I feel like I’ve at least accomplished something during the day.

Well now Jacob is screaming, the kids are fighting. Guess computer time is over. Wish me luck ~ I need it!

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