So sorry I’m behind on the blog 🙁
Today I had Chemo round #6. So I officially only have 6 left to go 🙂 It’s exciting and tiring thinking that I’m half way…
The Chemo I’m on is a ‘less harsh’ kind, I’m so thankful it’s not a harsh kind! Chemo is not fun. Plain and simple. If you saw me on the 9 days that I feel good you wouldn’t know it’s as hard as it is. But the other 5 days (this is every 14day cycle) you might not even recognize me. You can feel Chemo cursing through your body, like a poison, a heavy weight weighing you down. I have cold sensitivity which makes drinking water difficult, it gets colder as I drink (and due to Chemo and my Ostomy I HAVE to drink at Minimum 8glasses a day). It feels like crystals forming in your throat. This also makes my tongue go ‘lazy’ making me talk funny and slur my words. My hands and feet go numb and tingly when cool, actually any part of my body does. My hands also feel like they are seizing up, or getting lazy as well, making writing almost impossible (luckily they are working right now). nightly Orlund and I play dominos, I fumble the tiles and have to shake my hands out regularly to try to get them to ‘wake up’. I also have what is referred to as “Chemo fog”, it’s like I’m in a fog and have a hard time connecting things like I normally would (took me like 15 times watching those ‘don’t be a luger’ adds to figure out what they mean). I also have apparently short term memory loss, which is a side effect of Chemo, and from the Coma/trauma I endured. So we try to play games and keep my mind active. I’m very tired and some times I can’t physically lift myself up to get going. I call Thursday and Friday ‘movie days’ because when Jacob is napping I put a movie on for the girls so I can nap too.
Chemo makes homeschooling a bit more difficult as well. I don’t have the energy I wished I did to make it more fun, but I do the best I can (and hey, it’s Kindergarten). I basically do the regular schooling on my ‘non-Chemo’ weeks and then cram the other weeks into 2 days! Luckily Orlund is doing math with Joy so he can do that every evening easing the load for me (I just discovered it’s a seperate curriculum so we are a bit behind! lol).
That is basically what is going on in our lives. Our lives are broken up into 2 week segments, chemo-week and non-chemo week. Just like our weekends, making Christmas shopping more scheduled than usual! November 30th we are celebrating Christmas with my family, so had to do all that shopping last weekend. Just like there is only one other weekend that is a non-chemo weekend before Christmas with Orlund’s family! Gotta get their lists!!
Through all of this I have to keep Praising God. He is just so wonderful to undeserving me. Honestly. As I think back on all that’s happened He had everything scheduled and timed out perfectly! And He continues to Bless me, my Hemaglobin is staying nice and high (actually went up a little again), so I’m able to stay on track with my Chemo. (Which keeps Christmas as a non-chemo week!). Thank you God for loving me so much to send your precious Son Jesus to make a way for us all!! And as Christmas approaches we celebrate His birth!
God Bless you all!